No Buts

Have you ever been surprised by what you discover coming out of your mouth? I have. Many times. The more I pay attention to it the more I discover what I've been unconsciously doing that is self sabotaging and the sooner I could get myself out of my way. For example the word "but", such a simple 3 letter word that could make such subtle yet big difference. I find it is commonly used with excuses, justifications, obligations, rationalization and inauthenticity which all lead to keeping me away from being my true self. I also notice the word "but" is not found in the simple, direct language of my deeper truth. Whenever I catch myself thinking or saying "but", that's my queue to check if I am unconsciously making excuses, justifications, rationalization, if my actions have been unconsciously driven by obligations, if I have unconsciously been unauthentic in my communication. Like non-verbal communication and body language, the words we use whether in our communication with ourselves or with others, help shape us and our reality. I've come to understand the importance of choosing my words consciously.

I AM The Power

I had an awesome vibrational healing experience facilitated by Astoria last weekend. He was telling me to breathe deep deep deep and let my breath out out out, let all the things no longer serving me go. I was having a hard time breathing in deep, I've been having pain at my upperback, as if I have a bend there and can't pull my breath in pass it. Then I suddenly became aware that I was waiting for him to "fix me". At that same moment I realized I AM the power and I started to muscle my way through while I consciously pull in a full deep deep breathe past that pain and keep breathing in and again and again and after a while my breathe becomes easier and the pain at my back ease off. I noticed I wasn't breathing in deeply because I was worried that I may breath in unpleasant smell, like his breathe coming out the end of the didjeridu or the incent-smelling smell of the instrument etc and that I was worried drawing in too deep a breath is going to make my dry throat hurts. Then I remembered the message from Michael earlier that afternoon and that I am safe, it is safe for me to breathe in deeply and when I did that I didn't smell funny smell and my throat didn't hurt. The energy from the vibration felt so good, and I feel so much joy in taking deep breathe after deep breathe, I feel light. Like all those heaviness inside me have been shattled and crumbled away. I feel so happy!

Celebrating Greatness

This week I unexpectedly celebrated my 50-people challenge. I don't think I've actually celebrated my accomplishment of that challenge before that. Many of the people in my 50's were there at the Holistic Living Expo yesterday and Seeing people responding and interacting with each other about that challenge in front of the 50-people poster really drive it home for me and hearing myself telling the story behind the challenge out loud, it suddenly came into focus for me right then and there - that greatness in me that I didn't see, all that evidence and now I finally SEE! I am so excited, this is totally in alignment with using my new eyes to find the simple greatness in me! And a few people even said that they are inspired - how I challenged myself in the last 100 days of the year, and how I kept going even when I missed that 100-day mark. I truly felt I was living my purpose and that makes me super happy. I just realized, celebrating my greatness is an important component in continuing to live my divine purpose.