I'm POWERFUL Beyond Measure

Ever since I sensed this presence of a Giant within me more than a decade ago, I have been on a quest to unlock it. Then I spent many more years working at stepping into it. Now I finally got it, to step into my power I have to OWN it.

I've been treating it like there is some sort of rite of passage that I needed to go through in order to step into my power, and so I worked at it. Perhaps unconsciously I over-glorified it so when I accomplished it I would prove to myself just how impressive my effort had been.

In a recent awakening I come to realize I'm so much more powerful than I thought I am. I'm not talking about my potential, but of what I'm truly capable of that is in my natural ability. Ability that comes from the heart, which differs from that which is recognized by my mind. My mind has perceived image of who I am along with what I'm capable of. But every so often I would do something that I would afterward be so surprised that I actually did it. Like in, where did THAT come from? Indeed, where did that come from?

It came from a place outside of my mental knowing yet within my inner knowing. Owning my power means consciously acknowledging my abilities especially those that I thought was beyond my comprehension. I didn't have to know how I did it, just that I could do it. Without repeated evidence. Without validation from people around me. For example, I heal with my words and kindness, I teach with my learning and realizations, I lead with my passion and my charisma. These are all as real as I seeing with my heart. Now on, no more playing small, I AM all the above. And through me owning my power, I also indirectly give other people permission to do the same.

I'm AWE-full

To set about manifesting something and then being utterly surprised that it manifested - how often have you done that? As I worked on consciously aligning my intentions with my thoughts, my words and my actions, I started experiencing my manifestation on a more frequent basis.

With that something else have come to my attention - each time my intention gets manifested I seem surprised, almost shocked even, that it manifested. I remember, expecting is part of manifesting. So I wonder how come I still experience a sense of surprise when my intention get manifested. I mean, I AM very excited when it manifested, I also noticed I kept saying "I can't believe this actually happens!" A lot. And that somehow doesn't sit well inside me. Then a very wise friend pointed out to me that feeling is more of a feeling of in awe than a feeling of surprised and suggested that I replace "I can't believe . . ." with "I'm in awe . . .". Once I started shifting I immediately notice the difference in my energy when I use "I'm in awe" in sharing my excitement of discovering my manifested intention.

The more I share my excitement in this powerfully allowing energy, the more thoughts get manifested which only gets me even more excited. Supercharging my manifesting engine and perpetuating it on a powerful upward spiral. I believe I've discovered the other secret to manifesting!

I-Get-To Shift

I just learnt the power of the phrase "I get to". I need to get this translation project completed, after that I need to do the post shoot lab work for the photoshoot from the previous week. After that, I need to quickly get back on track with working on building my new website. Just saying that is already tiring. But when I swap that "I need to" to "I get to" . . . I get to do this translation project and get paid doing it! When I finished this project, I get to work on the rest of the post shoot lab work for the previous week shoot! When I finish that I get to work on building my new website! Wow can you feel the change in the energy? Then I said it out loud and my energy just shot up the ceiling! And so I went "When I finish this translation project, I get to have tiramisu, I get to treat myself to a home spa experience, I get to sleep till I wake up naturally, I get to go see the Eclipse movie with Tracy . . . " That kept me going working round the clock for 2 days with just 3 hours sleep each.

Don't worry, I have no intention of turning this working-round-the-clock into a life style, it would be SO not in alignment with my work-life balance intention.

Secret of The Phoenix Theory

I just took on a translation project to translate the content of a company's website from English to Chinese. The biggest challenge for me in my translation project was translating someone else's story. It was slow moving, my mind was slipping away, I wanted to go to sleep and forget about it. Instead I skipped over onto other less challenging parts. Finally I noticed avoiding it is draining more energy from me than if I were to do it.

Houston, we are way passed just-do-it, now entering NAIL-it-already! With that resolution I buckled down and refocus on the CEO's story. It was most difficult and the urge to run away from it kept coming up. I also knew that it is when I wanted to run away most that I needed to stay. I realized it was frustration that I was really wanting to avoid so I stopped running and just fully submerged myself and BE that frustration. I kept breathing into that and discovered that it felt just like the feeling of wanting to reach out for something yet at the same time trying to hold back. Very frustrating, very uncomfortable. It felt like a bunch of unsettled energy whirling inside me. Once I got that I imagined myself as a container for the unsettled energy to settle. The energy settled. Calm. Serenity. And guess what? I had a break through! I started to THINK of the CEO's story in Mandarin!

That was the turning point. It's like the phoenix story, mostly we heard of the action part and the result part: willingness to go into the flames and stay in it regardless the burning discomfort. From the ash the phoenix is reborn. What I just realized is that something else "up there" (in the head) needs to happen before one can understand and be inspired to take that action. That something is "Know thyself and be true to thyself". Two together is how the "rebirth of the phoenix" happens.

Live. Play. R&R.

Just realized something else from my falling off track and finding my way back previous week. Just like I need to rest & recharge my battery after I worked, I also need that after I played, especially if I had played hard.

Play doesn't necessary = R&R.

In fact, I decided I'm keeping them as 2 separate categories. Both are just as vital to my well being.