Co-relation: Open Mindedness and Fears

I’ve come to notice a co-relation in the more my mind opens up the more my fears fall away.

First it was my fear of riding a bike. Then it was my fear of having my own children.

Just the thought alone of getting on a bike had always left me feeling queasy and helplessly out of control. Oh I’ve tried it out a few times in my life; all ended up with me getting hurt physically. Each time the programming was re-enforced without my awareness. Bike = pain. Bike = out of control. Having very low pain tolerance didn’t help. Neither did my compulsion to be in control at all times. That’s why every single time bike riding was brought up in a suggestion without thinking I would automatically resist it with all that I’ve got. The thing is that I didn’t even know I was resisting it. In fact this whole realization didn’t hit me until this morning.

Last week while I was listening to PL&L podcast on extraordinary living, as Rick mentioned their Portugal bike riding learning vacation and I found myself wondering how it would truly feel to be riding a bike, to experience it for what it really is. At that precise moment I found myself able to let go of that fear and entertain that thought of “ok, I think I’ll give bike riding a try”.

A week later, I was listening to Rick interviewing Mike Mugel on the power of group awareness. As Mike shared about his company’s core belief of Anything is Possible, I started reflecting on how far I have come on this path of self awareness. My gratitude led me to think of my giveback by way of creating inspirational impacts, and how I can expand my legacy of richer living through richer seeing. I was not expecting the next thought that followed – the thought of having my own child. Our child. Interestingly, I notice the absence of the fear that usually follows the topic of having kids. I was really ok with that thought. So it further expanded itself. I would name him Clive, short for Conscious Living. For he is a result of my conscious living. I wondered how the journey would be - the journey of traveling with our boy into his adulthood, introducing him to his own self awareness; watching and supporting him creates his own destiny. And then my thoughts wandered some more. What about a second kid? What about a girl? How would Tracy be with his own kids? What kind of a big brother would Clive be?

Following my success with daily meditation, I’ve recently expanded my daily practice to include at least a 30-minute walk for physical exercise. I also started listening to these PL&L podcasts as I walk. They are interviews of ordinary people who are living an extraordinary life. I found listening to the mindset of these people has helped accelerate my mind opening, which is an essential part of my “unfolding” process.

I wonder if it is my fear that keeps my mind closed or my mind stayed closed to keep in the fears.

In any case, this journey of self awareness is getting more and more exciting!