Life can be EASY, too! (If I ALLOW it)

I AM so very HAPPY. Utterly and genuinely.

Last week while compiling my list of accomplishment for the year of 2011, it dawn on me that among my biggest accomplishments is my doing it without my "traditional" struggle!

You see, I used to love struggle. I bought in to the idea that "life is full of struggles", that "nothing worthwhile is gained without struggle", and something about how "struggles help builds one's character" (吃得苦中苦，方为人上人) That has been my mode of operation for all my life until a year ago when I started to realize that all those are not facts, they are just an idea. A limiting belief. And I COULD change that. It was a little challenging at first, because it has been ingrained in my being. I kept at it. Whenever I catch myself lapsing into my old "struggle" way, I would consciously shift out of it.

Also, instead of my usual way of working hard chasing after a goal, I started practicing the concept of allowing the goal to come towards me with ease and joy. This shift from focusing my energy and effort doing external physical stuff to working on my own inner stuff has made all the difference in transforming my experience in both personal and business accomplishments. I still need to do the external physical activities associated with each goal; I still have to ask for the business, close a sale, connect with people, and so on. The different is that it is now SO EASY and EFFORTLESSLY! And money comes to me regularly, I get checks in the mail frequently! And yes, plenty of gratitude dance going around on my end, you bet!

Life is BEAUTIFUL! EXCITING! YUMMY!

And most of all, Life can be EASY, too! If I ALLOW it.

Getting Up Close and Comfortable with Money

On my recent road trip to Mount Shasta, there were 6 of us in the vehicle, the one driving said she forgot to bring change for the toll, the rest of us responded we had change, someone behind me handed me a $20 while I just pulled some change out of my wallet. I was riding shotgun. I declined her money and used mine to pay for the toll. Afterward I noticed the real reason I declined the money is that I was not comfortable with receiving money! In my manifesting abundance I have been asking for more money to come to me yet I didn't realize I was that uncomfortable receiving money. Then I realized I have condition for my receiving money; only allowing myself to receiving money I have worked very hard to earn because I bought in to the idea of believing hard earned money is the only type of money deserves of my receiving. Which totally supports the other idea, that making money and getting rich is hard. Holy smoke! This is totally not in alignment with my intention for abundance! Wanting abundance yet limiting the ways I receive abundance . . . that is SO TOTALLY CONFLICTING!

In my journey of manifesting abundance I was led to the practice of prosperity consciousness through balancing giving and receiving. So following my recent discovery on how I can get comfortable receiving money (to simply release that self imposed condition of "only hard earned money is allowed") I also realized not only I'm more comfortable giving than receiving, I have some form of a scale that I'm always unconsciously measuring internally to ensure while I allow myself to receive, that it remains a second to giving, as if "god forbids I should tip that scale receiving more than I give!". But golly! God is not judgmental, I AM ! There is NO ONE keeping score on how much I receive or how much I give, if I feel there is, it's because I AM the one that is doing the score keeping, the comparing, the judging, of myself! I can receive and give as much as I want to my heart's contend, because the balancing between giving and receiving is not about keeping a 50-50 on my giving and receiving, it is about having the same EASE in my receiving and my giving!

It feels like my sense of seeing has become more keen, allowing me to see clearly and straight through judgement, illusions and limiting believes. I'm truly ready to receive. Money does come to me QUICKLY and EASILY, from all directions through many channels in a multitude of forms, ALL THE TIME !

Shift Into My Power

I have been listening to Rhonda Byrne explaining the Law of Attraction in her audiobook The Secret when my latest realization hit me. I AM already masterful at manifesting, look at everything in my reality, they were all initially just . a . thought. Regardless of whether I was conscious or unconscious of it! So the question is not “why am I not there yet” but “what do I have to do to be masterful at INTENTIONAL manifestation”. Once I am clear on the question, the answer came - expand my awareness of my thoughts and its process. When I master my thoughts, I would also have taken command of the deliberate creation of my reality. After all, every single thought IS a creation.

From there came my next realization - there is no time delay between the “thinking” and the “existing”! As soon as I think it, it already exists, just “invisible” that’s all. Then there is no question of “is it happening yet” because time is all relative; there is no “now” or “later” in the Universe; everything exists at the same time in the Universe. Therefore if what I desired is not yet visible, after I’ve deliberately thought (created) about it, logically speaking the blockage has to be ME. How am I blocking it from coming into the visible? In another word, how am I contradicting my own thoughts? Did I think one thing but believe another? Do my actions reflect a deeper underlying thought that contradicts my conscious thought?

Ever since I become aware of my subconscious dominant mindset being that of “not-enough” (scarcity), I have been working on deliberately shifting it to that of “abundance”. Now that I know thoughts are creations, then how come I’m not experiencing abundance everywhere in my daily life even though I’ve been thinking abundance? The conclusion - "I" am not in alignment with my thoughts. That would be what’s blocking the abundance from flowing into my life.

As I started examining my everyday life I was shocked by the extend of my actions contradicting my thoughts of abundance! I’ve come to notice that my enjoyment level drops as I get near to the end of stuff, from the ice cream in the container, body lotion in the bottle, color stickies on my post-it pads to my favorite workout pants wearing out at the seams. As if I’m stepping down on the brakes so that I won’t hit the wall at the end . . . I should slow down my enjoyment because if I finished it, there would be no more, therefore I need to stretch it out. This is blatantly a “not enough” type of thinking!

How can abundance manifest in my life if my action contracdicts my thoughts? And so, I started deliberately changing my action whenever I become aware of myself slowing down near the ending of things. I deliberately tell myself to go ahead, pull out all the stops, enjoy it to the very last bit! Finish that last serving of ice cream, so we could get more! Stop cutting up the tube to scrape out the last bit of cleanser, replace it with the new tube right now. If it takes 6 drops of Rosemary essential oil to enjoy a nice aromatheraphy hot shower, don’t skim it down to 3 drops or worse, deny myself that entire luxury just because the essential oil is nearing the bottom of the bottle. What am I doing? Trying to complicate a simple pleasure? Just as insane is the whole behavior of avoiding wearing my favorite workout pants just so that it would stay "safe" in my closet without a hole in the seams! What sort of askew logic is that?! Go put in a reorder for the essential oils, keep the simple luxuries in my life flowing! Throw away the worn out pants, make room for a new pair :0)

To experience abundance now, start LIVING ABUNDANCE NOW.

From mastering manifestation to mastering intentional manifestation.
From asking outward to asking inward
(“why is it not happening yet” to “how am I blocking it from happening”).
From thinking abundance to living abundance.

All it takes is a SHIFT of focus to produce phenominal outcome.

That, is aonther power we all have, besides our power to create.

I finally, FINALLY come to realize that my true power is in the AWARENESS of that power and in HOLDING it in my CONSCIOUSNESS.

In essence, I am truly POWER-FULL.



Rev. Michael Beckwith further explaining The Secret and Faith:



and Thoughts and the the Law of Attraction

Co-relation: Open Mindedness and Fears

I’ve come to notice a co-relation in the more my mind opens up the more my fears fall away.

First it was my fear of riding a bike. Then it was my fear of having my own children.

Just the thought alone of getting on a bike had always left me feeling queasy and helplessly out of control. Oh I’ve tried it out a few times in my life; all ended up with me getting hurt physically. Each time the programming was re-enforced without my awareness. Bike = pain. Bike = out of control. Having very low pain tolerance didn’t help. Neither did my compulsion to be in control at all times. That’s why every single time bike riding was brought up in a suggestion without thinking I would automatically resist it with all that I’ve got. The thing is that I didn’t even know I was resisting it. In fact this whole realization didn’t hit me until this morning.

Last week while I was listening to PL&L podcast on extraordinary living, as Rick mentioned their Portugal bike riding learning vacation and I found myself wondering how it would truly feel to be riding a bike, to experience it for what it really is. At that precise moment I found myself able to let go of that fear and entertain that thought of “ok, I think I’ll give bike riding a try”.

A week later, I was listening to Rick interviewing Mike Mugel on the power of group awareness. As Mike shared about his company’s core belief of Anything is Possible, I started reflecting on how far I have come on this path of self awareness. My gratitude led me to think of my giveback by way of creating inspirational impacts, and how I can expand my legacy of richer living through richer seeing. I was not expecting the next thought that followed – the thought of having my own child. Our child. Interestingly, I notice the absence of the fear that usually follows the topic of having kids. I was really ok with that thought. So it further expanded itself. I would name him Clive, short for Conscious Living. For he is a result of my conscious living. I wondered how the journey would be - the journey of traveling with our boy into his adulthood, introducing him to his own self awareness; watching and supporting him creates his own destiny. And then my thoughts wandered some more. What about a second kid? What about a girl? How would Tracy be with his own kids? What kind of a big brother would Clive be?

Following my success with daily meditation, I’ve recently expanded my daily practice to include at least a 30-minute walk for physical exercise. I also started listening to these PL&L podcasts as I walk. They are interviews of ordinary people who are living an extraordinary life. I found listening to the mindset of these people has helped accelerate my mind opening, which is an essential part of my “unfolding” process.

I wonder if it is my fear that keeps my mind closed or my mind stayed closed to keep in the fears.

In any case, this journey of self awareness is getting more and more exciting!