Focus On What Matters Most

This week I’m most grateful for many more blessings, strong love, tremendous support and important realization on stay focus on what matters most to me.

There is a difference in insisting getting exactly what I wanted and recognizing when something even better has shown up instead. The difference is in the focus. Am I focusing on insisting getting exactly what I want or am I focus on the big vision? The former implies a degree of wanting to control the outcome, the latter, more of a degree of command in invoking the magic of life. This command comes from a place of knowing and trusting the deeper and bigger power that is within me and beyond my thinking.

I've submitted my application for the voluntary separation program a couple of weeks ago and just heard back last Friday afternoon it has been approved with my last day being Oct 1st. I had 48 hours to consider the offer. I was hoping for Oct 31st and I was expecting miracle so when I saw the date of Oct 1st I was disappointed. Good thing I remembered the part about don't be attached to unimportant details. Though a month's pay isn't unimportant at that moment, what is more important is remembering where my commitment lies, to my vision or to getting exactly what I wanted. You see, the Universe always knows how to get what I want to me in the fastest and easiest way, my job in manifesting is to get really clear on my asking, recognize when the Universe delivers and receive it with gratitude. It ain't my job to worry about how my asking gets delivered. So I signed and faxed the resignation agreement back that same afternoon. Trusting this would work to my greatest advantage, serving my highest good. Everyone knows it is important to focus, what we should regularly check in to see is if we are focusing on what matters most to us.

So much is happening so quickly my mind is having a hard time trying to analyze and does what it usually does - wanting to control. This actually works to my advantage, providing me the opportunity to go with my intuition. Like in letting my instinct take over more and more, trusting that my heart KNOWS.

I AM My Own Captain (starship Virnaprise ready for launch)

This week I'm most grateful for the multitudes of events that impacted me for some pretty awesome growth; the love, support and bonds of friendship I'm surrounded with; and for finding myself standing on the edge of yet another major change in my life.

I have control issue. That is not what I wanted to discuss here. What I'm so excited and eager to share is that I just discovered how to shift out of CONTROL! Last Wednesday I received an email at work announcing the voluntary separation program (voluntary layoff in layman) that is open for enrollment immediately for 2 weeks. My emotional energy took a nose dive for a couple of days until I remember one of the BIGGIES I wanted to manifest this year has just manifested. I wanted to leave my day time job to pursue my photography career full time this year and I want to do so on my terms, not at a layoff like what happened to my best teammates at work last year. And THIS IS IT!

Then I spent the next 3 days going around in circle - from excited to worried to thrilled to scared back to excited. My logical mind says to get more info so I have a better understanding of where I stand financially. Another 2 days went by, I've only gotten to printing, yes, PRINTING, out the info on the voluntary separation program. One would think I would be zipping around gathering data because I am excited about all the possibilities this decision will open up for me.

So why the resistance? I finally understood, while having the possibilities are exciting, the not-knowing is so killing me. That is where my control issue lies. I want to know how I am getting from here to there. Every single steps all mapped out before I begin my journey. Like how I would Google-map the full route before going somewhere. The thing is I'm confusing CONTROL with COMMAND. Captain Kirk would determine where Enterprise would go next from the data his officers presented him and say, "chart a direct course to take us there". That, is command. I would gladly give up control for command. Whenever I feel my control issue kicks in, that would be my signal to check where am I not trusting the Universe would chart the most direct and fastest route to take me to where I desire to go.

Now, as the commander of my own star ship, Captain Virna gets to determine her preferences for this transition. For starters, let it be gentle for me, each step something I could ease into. Heaven knows I have done enough of proving I can handle tough now on this piggy goes wee wee wee easy all the way HOME. Just like that ease of sharing my enthusiasm and passion on connecting to our New Eyes and working with the camera to capture the simple beauty all around us - so much fun, excitement and oh-so-easy I don't even need to think about it!

At any given time I'm one moment away from making a move that would take me there, toward a new reality I want to create. With the Universe on my side ready to fulfill my heart's desire galore, asking me Do I dare? Do I trust? Yes. Oh YES! YES! YES! YES A MILLION TIMES YES! Now on, I get to live from moment to moment, listening to my intuition, following my heart's guidance, with much trust, patience and faith, allowing the Universe to unfold for me the awesome wonders and gifts it has to give me. Arms out, palms up, fingers spread, heart wide open and willing - I am secure in the knowing now on the transition will be gentle and easy for me.

Can you feel that strong crackling energy that one is so charged with standing right at the edge of something wonderfully big? It's strong, it's heady and could be very intense too. If you feel you wanted to take a drink from it, please do! There's plenty where that comes from ;)